SCARY... OR MAYBE THINKING TOO MUCH

Seeing people look innocent doesn't mean a person is harmless...

This is applicable to me

A little secret to share...

Today is my worst day of playing footsal...

Gotta keep it here, in my blog as a memory before i lost it again and repeat the same mistake

Everything going out fine until i get to play as a defender...

Which as usual they'll ask me to "stay there and don't move from my position" or c command that make me confuse...

This phrase confuse me... should i just stay there or should i just play and chase the ball

What i'm suppose to do...

My instinct told me to just move around and catch the ball as usuall which i'll get pump up and charge like a bull or getting all rough up...

Then there come the scene contain horrifying act that keep on flash inside my mind

The first 2 person that i injured is a person i don't wish to injured...its my housemate

I know the concept of "no pain no game" but the way i injured him freak me out

First i try to tab the ball from him, i fail then i accidentally step on his right foot then on his left foot again... after that he fall to the groung like a parachuteer jumping out from a choper

'poop'... o my god...

The strangest feeling like i was trying to kill him flash from my mind... making me feel awfully guilty for that fall...

Then come the 2nd strike... it seems llike i'm tapping my 2nd housemate's ball with style but i make him fall down too...

Then 3rd strike... i was trying to goal the ball instead of making a goal the ball roll from my senior's foot and hit him on a face...haiz... :(

So does this conclude that i shouldn't be playing games because i always feel guilty after each games????

Is that suppose to be felt by a player? or they should just go easy on that matter and forget it???

people say its ok... never mind bout that incident... but what they truely felt is what I don't know

but one thing for sure is that they're all very very and really nice to me