Wednesday 10 November 2010

Saying about effectiveness..

for some reason my stress won't go away after my exam...
getting worst day by day...
try to get attention... end up getting tension... lol
try to make an impression... end up look more idiotic...

the day before it burst... always sulk into deep blue sea...
seeking comfort from ppl around me...
not a good idea because always got the wrong idea since the path we walk is different...

last resort...
came out with a plan to ask my friend a helping ears..
he agree...
but i forget what to ask him...
so i say wait until you finish your activity then we have a small talk please..
kindly he reply yes :)


then i started to write down all my problem i want to speak out to him...
to help me share a bit burden or to get some care (>_<)
though i'm a grown up...
sometimes just need someone near or around to just concern about me

i write and write and write...
getting more and more excited writing everything out...
after that i check back... i might as well give up this little talk with him... T_T
everything i write down is bad stuff about other ppl...
minor issue that i can't resolve when it happen
sign of jealousy
and self pitying

WORST part is i thought i keep it in my bag :P
the next morning...
i reach to class noticing its not in there
lucky no one see that paper...
because its openly display on the desk in front of my laptop... hehehe
since i get my calmness back from writing it out...
i just burn it... watching the blaze of fire that burn away my problem...
a relieve for not causing any problem from a piece of paper...

thank god...
seems like its effective to draw out my problem but might create problem if other ppl sees it... hehehe