staring at the airway in my dark room...
thinking back of what have i done...
snap!!!

thinking the day i crack myself and do something stupid is near if I don't find a solution fast...
HELP!!!! I cried in my mind few punches to the wall feeling sorry for doing it
not helping but to injured myself...
sitting in front of my buddha and chantting...
hoping it'll make me recover fast but so long i'm not clear in my mind it'll be a waste effort...
begging my god to help me over come my situation... AMITABHA...AMITABHA...AMITABHA