Recently I've been paranoid over lot of stuff...
or should i say its been always like that but uncontrolable state has been aware lately
if i would ask my buddy... He'll say if you notice a things happen then you're not suffering that illness...
sometimes i wander what he say is right... but for now everything he say I accept that its true :)...
somehow i need to let it out some where...
but where I'm still searching...
but the effect seems to bother my buddy a lot ( that's what i think )
recently almost everything in my mind come out -ve thinking
so far after the incident everyone left one by one seems to becoming a trauma to me...
How to over come???
i always say to myself ( monolog ) "time will wash away everything" like I'm going insane...But when the trauma will fade???
I know what i should be doing...but my body is not listening to it...
and I've become a two headed snake too... doing this in front turning around I'm doing another stuff
and I've seriously selfish for the 1st time...
and its a big wish I've wished for...its still a secret like "it must not be say"
